Personal Heart Breaking Experience.

Hello. I wouldn’t be sure if anyone’s eyes would capture my blog, but I suppose I can put it all out. That’s what blogs are for.

For three years, I fell inlove with a guy who continuously flirted with me while I was in a relationship with another guy. My relationship at the time was rocky, but this other guy helped me. He made me happy and told me that if my boyfriend ever did something crazy to hurt, then he would be here waiting for me so he could protect me.

Eventually, I ended up turning him down, despite how much I loved him at the time and continued my other relationship that pretty much went to hell. Years later, I still carried feelings for the guy who said he would protect me. I had to guts to ask him out, but it was too late. He had started to date someone else. Later, the two broke up but I didn’t want to rush in to ask. I waited about a year and then a few days ago I cracked my feelings towards him.

He didn’t want to go out with me. My heart was broken and I don’t think I’m taking it so great. I try to get over it, but when I think how lonely I am… I get upset. Sometimes I feel I didn’t want to date him, just pretend to. Emulate love so I feel better when I am here online, because my outside life isn’t so great.

If only I had someone to emulate feelings of love, or of course even actually feel that way. It would be great. Or more so I wish I had a -bestfriend- figure, who I can say anything, do anything I want with them with no worries. Maybe that’s what I wanted from him and I foolishly mistook it for love. I don’t know. But the rejection has torn me apart. It’s been about 3 days. I still feel the pain.

Who would have thought a man such as myself could tell this way…

I wonder if there’s anyone who would find me as a great friend. 

I really need someone like that now…

If only life was a shojo manga. I bet someone would read them and suddenly find the need to help me. That would be awesome, haha.

Oi, announcement.

Well, it’s been some time since I bothered to sign on. Sorry, I was really busy with that troublesome thing called a life, but I’m here now. the big announcement is what you’re seeing. I traded faces with everyone’s cat loving, Onodera-sexual, Takano Masamune. 

Yeah, that’s pretty much it…

Considering being Takano.

As if there aren’t a billion of them running around, haha.

…Wait, didn’t I say I was going to be those guy’s Shouta fucked?

marimobooks-yukina started following you

editor-takano-masamune:

marimobooks-yukina:

editor-takano-masamune:

Hmmmm…You look familiar. Welcome.

“I do?” His smile became a modest one, not knowing the other since he sees so many faces, plus he pays extra attention to the females for obvious reasons.

“Maybe you’ve seen me at my work place? I work at Marimo Books in the Shoujo department. Is that any familiar?” 

Ah… There.

[He takes a sip from his can of beer calmly.]

Marimo Books is one of our clients. I must have seen you once or something, when I went down to accompany Yokozawa or to buy a book.

"Eh? Yokozawa-san?" He cocked his head, pondering a bit on the few people that come by the store with Yokozawa, that kind of being rare.

"Ah! You wouldn’t happen to be Takano Masamaune? Oh, sorry I hadn’t recognized you right away!" 

marimobooks-yukina started following you

editor-takano-masamune:

Hmmmm…You look familiar. Welcome.

"I do?" His smile became a modest one, not knowing the other since he sees so many faces, plus he pays extra attention to the females for obvious reasons.

"Maybe you’ve seen me at my work place? I work at Marimo Books in the Shoujo department. Is that any familiar?" 

WHERE IS THE NEW EPISODE!

Someone help. Google sucks. -sob.-

H’oh boy…

It’s like my will to role-play at all has been shot to all hell lately, which is why I haven’t been bothering to show up on any of my role-play accounts in the last few days. What’s goin’ on with me? Am I depressed or what because I’ve been sleeping during the day and night with no problems.

Maybe I’m love struck lonely and need someone to looooooooooooooooove, or something. Who knows. And man, I really need to clean my room. 

/Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawn.